Well, I must say that I am quite excited for tomorrow. Who wouldn't want to care for a little 8 week old baby - right? Well, tomorrow I will take on another child..... a little boy that is 8 weeks old and I must say that I am pretty excited about it. We got out the pack-n-play tonight, I put a sheet down, got a diaper changing pad out, a couple blankets and even some baby toys. Yep, I think we are prepared as much as we can be for the arrival of this little guy.
Shawn was putting up the pack-n-play and Cameron was standing next to it and I thought to myself..... where has my little baby disappeared to? It seems like yesterday when we were bringing him home from the hospital and putting him in the pack-n-play for the first time. We changed his diapers on there and well now he is just way too big. I remember when I use to change his diaper and how he use to pee on us ALL THE TIME. I think we got pee'd on daily and trust me.... we would move fast, but he was faster. We finally just always made sure we had a cloth diaper available to throw over top of his winkie and that was probably the smartest thing we ever did when it came to changing diapers. I guess you learn as first time parents - right? Anyway, I just can't get over how much my little boy has grown. He is definitely not a baby anymore and to be quite honest with all of you, it is so sad!! I miss my little baby, I miss the snuggling, I miss the times when I could lay him on my chest and he would fall asleep and I guess I just miss everything about that baby stage.
My husband told me tonight that I was just way to excited for this baby to come tomorrow. He told me that it was time we have another and well I agree, but I also know that I don't ever want Cameron to feel slighted in anyway. Cameron is my whole world. He is my everything and I would NEVER want to do anything to make him feel like he isn't loved or not wanted. I guess it is just sometimes hard for me to think about having another baby even though I would love to have one. Well, I guess time will tell and in the mean time we will just continue to enjoy this sweet little boy that we have been blessed with. Right now, I just can't imagine there being any other child that would or could brighten my world anymore. I know that may sound strange to some of you, but after trying years and years to have a child, lose a child in 2004 and finally conceive through IVF....... well, he has been THE BEST GIFT EVER that I could have received from anyone. God has truly blessed me with such an unbelievable little boy that makes me laugh, love and more importantly to enjoy all of the little things in life. Have you ever imagined that you were looking through the eyes of a child? Well, I do that every single day that I get to spend with my little boy and it is truly the best thing ever. Learning to enjoy all of the little things in life is such a blessing and then for you to be able to share it with a little someone special makes it that much more fun.
God's greatest gift is indeed a child and this little child of mine is my greatest gift in life. Cameron completes me and our world and I thank my Heavenly Father for him every single day.