Sunday, February 1, 2009

A Baby No More

Well, I must say that I am quite excited for tomorrow. Who wouldn't want to care for a little 8 week old baby - right? Well, tomorrow I will take on another child..... a little boy that is 8 weeks old and I must say that I am pretty excited about it. We got out the pack-n-play tonight, I put a sheet down, got a diaper changing pad out, a couple blankets and even some baby toys. Yep, I think we are prepared as much as we can be for the arrival of this little guy.
Shawn was putting up the pack-n-play and Cameron was standing next to it and I thought to myself..... where has my little baby disappeared to? It seems like yesterday when we were bringing him home from the hospital and putting him in the pack-n-play for the first time. We changed his diapers on there and well now he is just way too big. I remember when I use to change his diaper and how he use to pee on us ALL THE TIME. I think we got pee'd on daily and trust me.... we would move fast, but he was faster. We finally just always made sure we had a cloth diaper available to throw over top of his winkie and that was probably the smartest thing we ever did when it came to changing diapers. I guess you learn as first time parents - right? Anyway, I just can't get over how much my little boy has grown. He is definitely not a baby anymore and to be quite honest with all of you, it is so sad!! I miss my little baby, I miss the snuggling, I miss the times when I could lay him on my chest and he would fall asleep and I guess I just miss everything about that baby stage.
My husband told me tonight that I was just way to excited for this baby to come tomorrow. He told me that it was time we have another and well I agree, but I also know that I don't ever want Cameron to feel slighted in anyway. Cameron is my whole world. He is my everything and I would NEVER want to do anything to make him feel like he isn't loved or not wanted. I guess it is just sometimes hard for me to think about having another baby even though I would love to have one. Well, I guess time will tell and in the mean time we will just continue to enjoy this sweet little boy that we have been blessed with. Right now, I just can't imagine there being any other child that would or could brighten my world anymore. I know that may sound strange to some of you, but after trying years and years to have a child, lose a child in 2004 and finally conceive through IVF....... well, he has been THE BEST GIFT EVER that I could have received from anyone. God has truly blessed me with such an unbelievable little boy that makes me laugh, love and more importantly to enjoy all of the little things in life. Have you ever imagined that you were looking through the eyes of a child? Well, I do that every single day that I get to spend with my little boy and it is truly the best thing ever. Learning to enjoy all of the little things in life is such a blessing and then for you to be able to share it with a little someone special makes it that much more fun.
God's greatest gift is indeed a child and this little child of mine is my greatest gift in life. Cameron completes me and our world and I thank my Heavenly Father for him every single day.



11 comments:

Aspiemom said...

When I was a nanny I took care of twin infants. The little girl would actually pee on me more than the boy. I mean, an arc of pee!!!!

Kelly said...

how sweet. mmmm...the smell of baby. have fun!!!

Brandi,Dan & Lukas said...

I am glad you have another child to watch. If your blessed with another child you will have PLENTY of love to go around. Your a great mom and I know Cameron wouldn't be shafted in any way. You would just have two times the love in your heart.

He And Me + 3 said...

That should be so much fun to have a new baby around...I am sure Cameron will love it. Let us know how it goes.

Stacey said...

I am so excited for you to have this new little guy to take care of. What a blessing for you, as well as him and his parents. :) Enjoy your day. :)

Aw Lisa, I so agree with the comment that Brandi left you when she said you will have plenty of love to go around and that you are a great mom and you would see that your love would be twice as large with another child of your own. Let me tell you, we need more parents like you and Shawn out there raising our children. If there are going to be more children born into this world then I would love to know that you and Shawn would get the opportunity to do it again.

Love and hugs,
Stacey

McCrakensx4 said...

New babies are always so much fun!

Debra said...

Oh Lisa,

That's gonna be so much fun for you. I love the smell of a new baby! Blessings to you today!

Lianna Knight said...

He is such a cutie!! I agree...you are so blessed.

Kimber said...

How exciting. I love babies too. Have fun!!

Kahla said...

How fun, hope you have a wonderful time!! They do grow entirely too fast. I know it's hard to imagine loving another as much, but I say don't wait to do IVF again. We were so sure it'd work when we tried IVF for our 2nd since it worked the first time and here we are 2 years later still trying!

Mrz. Hannah Myhre said...

Hi Lisa.. thanks for your comment..
Reading your blog is encouraging and inspiring!! I am very excided about doing IVF soon. I see that you are a christian.. so am I, it feels good to come across people like you, who share my faith in God. Your little boy is very cute!! Me and DH want to have at least 4 children "one day", and I plan on being a SAHM. I know I'm young.. but I know what I want. And this whole infertility thing has felt as if it was going to kill me at times. When I was growing up, I wanted to be a wife and mother when I grew up. I know God is in control, and everything will work out. I hope you have more!!

Hannah