Do you ever have days or weeks where you just feel icky about yourself? Well, today has been one of those days for me. Can you tell that I need to hurry up and recuperate from this surgery before it sends me over the edge? (lol) Anyway, today it got the best of me and I spent some time crying this morning. I am so frustrated that I am not able to do anything to help anyone and/or do anything to help my hubby or family to help make things easier on them. Don't get me wrong - I am doing better, but today was just an off day for me. I showered and still cannot dry my left butt cheek or left leg due to too much twisting and turning and it still causing pain and discomfort. So, I have to ask my sweet hubby for help which I hate, but he never complains and of course always does it with a smile. I got dressed shortly after brushing my teeth and not before looking at my body (particularly my belly). I literally look like I have been through some war or some fight and lost, lost BIG. I have bruises all over my belly, my arms, my legs and my belly is covered in staples. My hair needs cut and I literally feel like a mess. I look like a mess too!! So, today I spent alot of time thinking to myself..... why in the world does my hubby continue to stand by my side, love me for me and why in the world does he find me attractive? Ugh, I know that I shouldn't feel this way, but I do and I can't help, but feel this way about myself. We have a Christmas party to go to this weekend (a family party) and I am looking forward to it, but who knows how long I will be able to last. I have no energy to do much of anything and still do not have my strength built back up and all I can think about is ruining the day for my hubby. So, who knows what Saturday will bring, but I am looking forward to it, but just hoping that I can hang with the big dogs or maybe I should say "Hang with the Family". So, do you ever experience days like this and how do you cope with them? How do you make things better and try to see the positive in things? Normally I am a very positive person, actually can't stand to hang around negative people, but lately, I am in need of a little pep talk. This surgery, recovery and everything that goes along with it is getting the best of me. Any pointers that you may have would be much appreciated. Thank you as always for listening.
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